Circle of Agony ep. 1







COA // ep.1 // "What did I see?"


He pulled me slowly, by the back of my collar and I was raised from the cold, moist sand. I was levitating. I wanted to lift my head and protest again, but it hung severely; my neck was sore and I found it difficult to breath. The automaton's gunfire hadn't pierced my flesh thanks to my body armor, but the impact left me feeling as though I had been stoned nearly to death. To the left of me, I could see Tawaret, the Sehirtu, lying face down. Her body had been shattered.

Agony's breathe was labored. There was a rattle in it, the sound of liquid in the lungs. Blood.

I supported myself with a single knee.

"Let me die," I said, knowing I would not die unless he himself put a bullet into my head now that I was defenseless.

"Get up," he said. "It is time."

I stood slowly. My vision was distorted, my equilibrium was off. My weapons were missing. I felt Agony's arm hook around mine and pull me tentatively forward. I could barely support my own weight, but with great strain he did it for me. I wanted to regain my strength, and after a few steps attempt to disengage from him and run if I could not disarm him. I knew Sarah would be close behind, finding us soon.

After those few steps I realized there was no escape. He would take me to the water, to the very fringe itself, and the veil that had obscured my understanding of the darkness beyond reality would be lifted. I would take the final step towards understanding Agony and destroying the Ivo Musa I had fought so long to keep intact.

I feel to my knees in the tide. The water was frigid, but the pain of the cold was distant and dull. I recognized my physical self as little more than the vehicle that carried my waning consciousness. I could see the dymanic blur of the horizon, the false horizon, that was the backdrop for what was truly happening there - the edge of the universe. He brought me closer, and I crawled as a baby attempting its first walk until I inhaled the water from the sea and was lifted up once more.

There we stood, and the transient end of the world, and I closed my eyes in rebellion to the looming illumination.

"Open your eyes, Ivo."

"I don't want to," I said.

"You must," Agony replied. "This is the time. It has come to this, as you knew it would, and I have something that you need to see. It is something only you will be able to understand, and all things in their mal-alignment will be addressed. I am dying Ivo, and this is the last thing I will do in life. The last thing, and the greatest thing."

I wanted to shake my head, think of some last sliver of reason that I could set before him to make him understand the folly of his sermon. He had bested me once, at the cabin he had raised from the dust, and I questioned myself. But here we were at the end, and I struggled to find a reason now why what he believed was wrong and what I believed was not.

I could not. With no other choices, I opened my eyes. 

The fringe opened for me, a seam that fought valiantly to withhold a brilliant sputtering of light behind it. I began to see the images there, to make out the shapes and the forms and the beings and the times that were replaying over and over again in over the film of the implosion of reality itself. All feeling left my body, and my entire understanding was positioned at the base of my eyes, to receive this eldritch message that awaited me since time immemorial.

What did I see? I saw everything.

Everything. 

What did I see?

 I will tell you.












Europa



Europa

I looked back at the thread I left behind me
Like Theseus
And I decided to take it with me. 
A yarn to tell you one day

I combed forward across constellations
Unremarkable progress;
Appreciated the picture in a broad sense
I passed you along the way

When I am lonely I imagine you;
As you were when I imagined you;
Even my own imagination -
Sober with the injection of reality -
Knows how to muffle the impact
Of disappointment.

I've read the ending of every book
But cannot start my own journal

A God, in someone else's universe
 And I am always on the outside

You are the only one who knows - 

And I only exist when you remember.













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The Manifold Multiverse


Understanding it


 The Manifold is the fictitious world I have created as the set for my fiction and my art. Everything I write, paint, etc, is connected in some way with the folds. 

It is the last network of realities existing at the end of all time/space. The strange deities that navigate the Manifold, or as they call it, End's Wreathe, rule over or watch various environments where many of the stories take place. Some of these are the Circle of Agony stories, L'nor, and the Wicked of Gris. 

My artwork and music alludes to these characters and places. This style of creation is an homage to those who have done, very successfully, what I am toying with now: Stephen King, H.P. Lovecraft, J.R.R. Tolkien,Neil Gaiman, Tim Burton, among others. 

Stay tuned. An EP release will come, due to hit in the summer for free download. There will be some musical performances with myself and the group The Nezitiq Mute, as well as a few art showings in NYC in 2012 including a custom spray can show and collaborative exhibition with Being Latino and 5x5.


Circle of Agony: Chapter 1 - A Preview



            I looked into the alleyway and saw nothing. I knew that at the end of that particular alleyway there were two short inlets on either side where one could hide, so I waited for Preem. If I went in alone I would be put at a disadvantage.
            Preem came silently along behind and when he understood the layout he naturally went before me, leaving me with his cover.
            The inlet area smelled strongly of urine. We found nothing, but both of us glanced towards the sky. Our instinct was confirmed when we saw the imp bounding from each side of an inlet to the other, hopping from the lips of the window ledges, making fast progress upward. He may have been ten or more stories above us, and would reach the rooftop - double that height - in a matter of moments.
            Preem drew his weapon and aimed above our heads. I touched his shoulder.
            “Someone may look out the window,” I said. He grinned at me guiltily and holstered his revolver. I motioned for us to leave the alley and return to the street where HRXT would be awaiting us. I took my com from its pocket and spoke to the primer.
            “The rooftops between 17th and 18th block, underway 8. Do you have someone on overway 8? End.”
            “Margoles. End.” The primer clicked back.
            “Uh. Margoles is a moderate shot,” Preem quipped coolly.
            “Alright,” I said, impatient with him. We boarded HRXT who seemed agitated. This particular Impression seemed to make him anxious.
            We came to a stairway within a dilapidated vestibule, one frequented exclusively by the industrial servicemen who maintained the functioning portions of the block. A Cell-laborer helped us pass to the restricted upper floors, and we made our way quickly to rooftop access. Two long ranged shots rang from Margoles’ revolver, but went unanswered. The sound reverberated hauntingly through the stairwell. When we reached the top I opened the door carefully, signaling Preem to find a spot and cover. I dashed out ahead to find my own.
            He com’ed me once we settled in.
            “Are you going to keep me guessing on this imp, buddy?” he said.
            “You like games,” I said, mimicking his tone. He snuffed on the other end of the com but I knew he was ready for action.
            “Unregistered Erimha,” I said. “Turn your com to the primer. You can listen too, you know.”
            Preem laughed in response. “But I’d rather hear it from you Captain. Sara and I find it sooth-“
            Four shots rang out overhead suddenly . I dipped, and changed position from one enormous rooftop exhaust vent to another only a few yards away. Margoles allowed his revolving rifle to bark down and ahead of us, to where I assumed he had spotted the rouge Erimha. Preem countered my movement and took the lead, planting at another vent. Margoles came through my com. I was preparing my own revolver.
            “He’s fast Musa. He hasn’t returned a shot yet but even from this distance I can tell he’s modified and I’m sure he’ll pack a punch. End.”
            “Don’t worry,” I replied. “We aren’t exactly trying to start a fight. We want to follow him for a bit. Whoever set fire to that data complex was hoping for the diversion, and it worked. He’s worth more to us intact. End.”
            The exhaust vents along the rooftops were situated rows, to create a long, narrow space between the columns as far as I could see. It was possible that he hid amongst them as he escaped, or that he leapt into one of them to burrow into the network of factory spaces that populated the entire strip underneath the 8th overway.
            I narrowed and extended my vision and saw further; a figure darted from one one column to the other.
            “He’s nearing the end, moving away from the overway. End.” Margoles chirped.
            Preem and I rushed with our weapons drawn. He had strung us along the roofs and now sought to leave us hanging here as he escaped in the direction he wanted us to believe he was going. Cutting through the buildings would take too long; going over the edges would leave us open to his shots.
            HRXT sent a series of clicks that indicated he was engaging the target. I was surprised. Preem and I came to the end of the series of rooftops away from the overway, and spotted the automaton. By a stroke of luck, he had circled away from our location and returned using an elevated street ramp a leap away from the block, but some eight to ten stories down. The Impression had already made a landing on the ramp, a hundred yards or so before HRXT, who shifted into his humanoid form and extended his turrets.
            Preem and I were nearly directly over the action. One of us would have to stay on the roof; the other make their way down to support HRXT. I com’ed Margoles, and a party was sent searching for a position to intercept the imp at each escape route they could find.
            I sent a command to HRXT. To avoid crossfire, he angled himself and I followed it in my stride to create a triangle with the target. The imp, knowing full well his risks, chose to engage the automaton before addressing me. He understood where the superior force was, and knew he had a few moments to react.
            I leapt down. From my landing I realized it was more like eleven stories. My frame was jolted upon impact and it took a moment to recover.
            The imp attempted to cross our plane and direct HRXT’s explosive rounds to my direction. When the automaton paused, the imp made his way towards it and turned his torso full around to me. He extended a hand, and from the hand a small turret projected itself.
            Modified was right.
            I dove as enormous rounds were let off. It sounded like the air was being unzipped near my ears and the percussion of the blasts beat against my chest like human hands.
            Preem returned fire from the rooftop. HRXT couldn’t shoot in our direction, but our bullets would do little damage to him. From my position on the ground, I sent a few of my own to the imp.
            Only sparks replied. At least a shot apiece made contact, but no damage was remarkable.
            HRXT and the imp were in close combat now. Preem clicked through.
            “I’m coming down.”
            “Wait-“
            HRXT let off two close range blasts. The imp ducked away from both with unbelievable agility. From one of his arms, a two-sided blade was produced – from the other his turret remained deployed. I watched in horror as the imp overcame HRXT with its superior speed, violently severing one of the automaton's arms from underneath it. HRXT shifted his weight to compensate for the attack and replaced his turret with his enormous, powerful hand, seized the imp by the torso, and lifted him from the ground with destructive intent. He left himself unguarded. I had already begun to move, and let off some four desperate rounds before reloading as I ran to save our automaton. Scarcely concerned, the imp placed his turret before the faceless head of HRXT and shattered it with a single blast from the powerful weapon. He was released then, and landed squarely on its feet. I heard Preem’s footsteps behind me, and signaled him to remain where he was. I was within yards of my own close combat with the imp, but it stood motionless – weapon down - before the wrecked body of the automaton.
            I could hear its speaking mechanism click into place.
            “Stay there.” It said.
            I stood. My own weapon was down.
            “Where are you going to go?” I asked.
            “I will retreat, as I may. Where I go will lead me to my overseer. We’ve accomplished our initial objective and must discuss our following. Pursuing me any further will end badly for you, Arclier.”
            I was silent. I knew he was right. He was modified with top quality body armor and weapons unlike any Erimha I had ever seen. Whoever his ‘overseer’ was, it was someone with the means and the motive to ensure an expensive apprehension. Still, a part of me wanted to collect a piece of him for testing. The imp must have read my thought in the shift of tension.
            “Don’t,” he said.
            I hesitated, then relaxed.
            “Who is the overseer?”
            He clicked. “I’m sorry. That is classified.”
            His tone was drone-like. It hummed deeply in his torso, and rang with a bitter peal, likely because of the additional metal that surrounded the source of the Impression voice. It was not unpleasant, but more inhuman than I was accustomed to from an Erimha.
He stood silent, and I noticed at that moment that his opaque façade was also more imposing than any other imp. Most are blank semi-humanoid faces; some with rank own façades fashioned after the face of their Impresser, or their current benefactor.
            His was a transparent, grinning skull. A glass visage of death that smoldered in the sunset.
            I sent a word through the com that we were to hold. There was a soothing, dead calm in the atmosphere. It was peaceful. I was grateful for the reprieve of gunfire.
            “What is your name then, Erimha? Surely you can tell me that at no cost.”
            The imp raised a hand and tilted his head in resignation. He began to become dark, and I realized that the sun was setting behind him. The sky was the color of rust. Then again, it always was. 
            “I am Golgotha.”
            Golgotha glanced to his left. He walked purposefully over to the edge of the ramp, and leapt. His leap was unearthly; he covered a dozen stories upward, and regained position on the rooftops perpendicular to the overway.
            I marked his direction, but said nothing to the team on the com.
            Preem came up and stood next to me. We stood listening for a moment until he spoke.
            “His name was-“
            “I heard,” Preem said, and chucked. “Let’s try not to run into him again, huh?”
                                                                                                                 

Burning Jupiter























I left Rome in ruin
A squalid assortment of mausoleum facades
And limbless ghosts
In my youth, when I believed my indentity
A coney to catch

When I learned that I'd find myself along the path
Incidently
I retraced my steps
And made no father figures
Of chalk outlines

I took my son with me to the shambles of kingdoms
To show him how majestic a collapse
Of such poignancy can be
And we both stood in awe
he yet to my hip and said
'I wish it were not this way'

There were monuments still erect in Rome
Enough to project upon,
To give generously to the annals
With reflective expectation
But I don't do that anymore

I went to the temple of my father
And burned it down

The fish is no longer ruled by Jupiter
And no road will lead me to who I am

My son and I went home then
History before us



- dedicated to no-one